It’s Alive!!!

Posted 1 year, 6 months ago at 7:53 pm. 0 comments

I am going to live. The last several days have been a blur, seriously. I thought I was going to end up in the hospital. I have not been that sick in years. Tuesday I felt a little bit of a sore throat. I was coughing here and there but by Tuesday night I felt fine. Wed. I got up and I had a headache that progressed through the day. That afternoon my body started to ache, I felt like I had a fever and the headache was really bad. I took some meds and laid down for a nap before work. S woke me up at 615pm with a “Don’t you have to work mommy?” I ended up being a hour late by the time I got her to daycare and got to work. Everyone had comments on how shitty I looked. I was pale, sweating pretty bad and all around felt like shit. I had a dry cough that was annoying. My body ached. I made it through work, got S and got her on the bus. I laid down Thursday morning

That is when it went really down hill. I slept all day and I don’t remember a whole lot Thursday. I remember S coming home from school and I woke up and felt like I was going to die. I had body aches so bad and I was sweating so bad everytime I took Advil cause I knew I had a fever. It would break and I would just pour sweat. I got my work pants on and my work undershirt on and attempted to get ready for work. I felt as if I was going to pass out, I was so weak and hurt so bad. I decided there was no way I would make it to work and called in. I fell asleep in bed still with part of my uniform on. S had to fend for herself and feed herself. I got up for a few hours that night and was drinking everything in sight. Early Friday morning I remember my sister calling and I was crying on the phone I was so miserable. Later K called me and I was crying on the phone with him. He said I should have the ambulance come and get me. I almost could of if I could of afforded it. I had to get S ready for school so I got out of bed and it took sometime. I would almost piss myself because it took so long due to pain to get to the bathroom.

I finally said fuck it. I took 6 Advil because I knew I had to be able to move enough to get to the doc. I got S off to school and called the doc and got in right away. On the way in I stopped to talk to S’s nurse about her medication for her ADHD and pick up her perscription. My fever broke and I just started to pour sweat again. The nurse even said “oh my God do you need some Tylenol or something?” I told her I took a shitload of Advil so that is why my fever was breaking. I get to the doc and they take my temp it is 101F I hate to see what it was before. I never did take it at home, I just knew it was there.

Doc does a flu test it comes back negative. I am starting to go downhill again by this time and wanting to just get home. She sends me home and says by Monday if I am not better to come back in. She thinks it just needs to run its course. Okay, whatever. Send me home fucking miserable all weekend.

I come home and lay in bed again all day and most of the night. I started to cough and it wasn’t productive. I mean I had no snot or mucus. I coughed and coughed to the point my stomach is killing me and my throat and lungs are so painful. I get up and take some cough syrup S had left over when she was sick that has Codine in it. I don’t really recall talking to K on the phone or any phone conversations I had yesterday I was so out of it.

Today I am still coughing and my ears burn like a son of a bitch. Everytime I cough I want to pass out. I am over the fever though and on the mend finally. I can tell I am getting better but I am still sick. I am just hoping I can go to work tomorrow night. I should be able to if I have improved this much today. I still look like royal shit though. Hope to clean up tomorrow and look more like myself. I still am sitting here trying to just remember the last several days and all that I did!