My heart aches and S is hurting badly. In the end it is for the best and we want everyone to pray for Bee and our healing in this rough time.

Matthew Taylor Ritchie is the father of my daughter. I do not call her his daughter. He has not seen her since she was 13mo old, by his choice and his choice alone. S has tried to call him, email him etc through the years and he has never returned a call or an email to her. She at this time will tell anyone she does not like her dad and wants nothing to do with him. As much of a deadbeat he is, I keep my mouth shut and do not down him in front of her.

At this date, he is $4400 behind in child support. He stopped payment on his March payment right before her birthday. Now that is what I call a quality father. He also owes me almost $3000 in medical bills. The pussy hides in his house and ignores the civil process severs. I have spent over $200 trying to serve him, he avoids them. I have sent him the bills several times and he refuses to pay, even though he is court ordered to do so. I have to get a judge to grant me permission to publish a notice in the news paper down in Lithia, FL where he lives to get my judgment.

He owes his CHILD over $7000.

Matthew Ritchie also dropped his daughter from health insurance with out telling me. She has ADHD and now I can not get insurance to cover her ADHD ever. How nice of a father is that? He is a real winner I tell you.

I have to wonder how much his wife Ashley Faith Ritchie AKA Cristal Pauline Ritchie enjoys being married to such a piece of shit. She screwed him and got knocked up while he was married. That takes a lot of braincells. I didn’t mind throwing him out and to this day it was the best thing I ever did. He cheated on her with me, and I only did that so I could laugh through the years that with her he was no better. I don’t miss him.

I never regretted having my daughter with him. She means the world to me. I just regret that she has such a dirt bag for a father. That he is so worthless and will hurt her for as long as he can. He has been hurting her since the day she was born and for that I regret putting her in that position. She does have a great mom that despite the bullshit that Matthew Ritchie does, she protects her and gives her a pretty damn good life.

I have debt collectors breathing down my neck, garnishing my wages, constantly getting served papers for medical bills. Yep. I only have $2000 left out of $11,000. I paid them off myself despite what I went through. S and I went with out a lot and even went hungry at times, but I paid the bills off. Eventually I will get the money from Matthew Ritchie. When I do, S is going to have a nice big check in the bank for college. I already paid the money and when I get it from her dad it is going to be hers.

SO yes world. Matthew Taylor Ritchie that lives down in Lithia, FL is a loser and a deadbeat dad.

Daughter S is turning 8 in a few days. She is so excited. I can not believe she is almost 8 years old. Time flies when you are having fun.

The house is great. I love owning my own home and paying myself rent. Worth it in the end. I had a few things go out on me that were money suckers but I am making through it. There are a lot of things that I want to get too. I want to paint my porch very soon. It needs it bad. Should be able to tackle that in the next two weeks. I don’t have room for a garden as most of my backyard is shaded. I am going to plant some stuff in large pots and put them out on my patio instead. I am looking forward to that.

I finally got my child support shit taken care of. I jacked his support clear up there. He wouldn’t let me civil serve him for the medical bills that are over $3k. I jacked his support up. I am done playing games. He is already behind over $2500 in back child support because he is paying the old amount. They are going to suspend his DL and garnish his checking account if he doesn’t pay it. My lawyer and I are going to get permission from the court to give him process b y publishing it in the paper so I can get the judgment. Once I get it, it will attach to my child support and they will go after him for it. He owes me as of today almost $6k. Sucks to be him. If he would just grow up he wouldn’t have these problems or would it be that hard.

Love life. I don’t have one. I suppose I should get back into that, but a part of me is just not ready. I realize I have baggage. I can not say that I am over my ex. I still love him. I still think about him a lot. I still struggle with it. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, and a part of me still wants that. I feel like there is this stupid shit in between us that neither one of us wants to give the strength to correct it. I feel that it is too late to correct it now that I have moved on so much.

I made some huge mistakes. I realize now that I was seriously depressed and not myself. I can not say I was that loving or open to be loved by him or even my daughter. I was so overwhelmed by emotions of all other things. My brother was a lot of it. I was drowning in my own misery. I couldn’t deal with emotions. I developed a gambling problem and put him in a huge financial mess when I lived with him, that was wrong. I didn’t admit to it to him or anyone, not even myself. I cured that when I moved out of his house. My brother’s illness towards the end really threw me off the deep end. Gambling was my release. A poor one.

My financial mess was going deeper in the hole. I felt I was giving everything, but in reality I wasn’t giving much. The last year and a half I have worked hard on it. The last 6mo very hard. It is getting easier to deal with. I have about $2k left in medical bills out of $11k. I have $13k left in my car to pay off and then tackle $26k in student loans and I will just have my house payment. It feels much better to be really working hard at it and seeing an end.

I was negative. Every little tiny thing he did that hurt I balled it up into a huge ball and would throw it at him every chance I could. I guess a part of him wanted him to hurt because I was hurting so bad. Most of my hurt wasn’t even him. I couldn’t let go, I couldn’t allow him to make mistakes. In the end I was making huge mistakes. I am not saying he is perfect. He can be an ass, but he would admit to it and try and not do that again. He didn’t know how to be the best boyfriend. I didn’t know how to be the best girlfriend. ugh.

His parents in the end threw in the last wrench for me. His dad making the comment I wasn’t what they expected for their son. I didn’t want his parents unhappy nor did I want him to have to deal with his parents not liking who he was with.

These are just wounds I have yet to heal and I am working on them. I am a better person and have done a lot of growing. I guess typing this out I realize that I need to be saying this to him in a way too, it can help me let go.

Enough for now.

Tue - Same as Monday as far as pictures and packing. This will be S last day at her school. She is sad, but looking forward to moving.

Wed - S and I at 9am go to close on the house. It will be ours FINALLY! YAY!!!!! We are going to her new school to let her meet everyone. I have to rush back to town and meet my sister so she can leave with S to go to Pierre and get her children for Thanksgiving. I have to work. Not much else will get done.

Thur - I work, but will have a Thanksgiving buffet with my sister and the kids.

Fri - When I get up (I get home at 6am) I am going to run a few loads to the new house. Try and get done as much as I can and work on more pictures to keep getting caught up.

Sat- I have a wedding to photograph all day. Come home sleep.

Sun - Get up early and it is moving day.

Mon- Sakura starts at her new school, I work that night.

Tue- I work again

Wed and Thur - I can finally unpack before going into another weekend of work.

I pretty much figure the next month is going to be insane, but worth it. I will post pictures of progress. Stay tuned.

1) Child support modification. I had several issues I needed to address.
a) My ex pays $800mo child support.
b) He has refused several requests from the state to cough up his financial information. He is very well off.
c) He was to pay 50% of S medical bills, that he has not done. I have had to pay $10k since 2003 myself, which financially about killed me. I had judgments, wages garnished, collections up the ass. I am almost done.
d) He was to carry her health insurance, he had poor insurance on her, and at times had lapses in coverage. He also dropped her back in November 2006 with out telling me, I had to go to court earlier this year and get the court order to carry her myself. He refused to give me her certificate of coverage from his insurance he had on her. This resulted in my daughter going into a large gap in insurance and now her ADHD will never be covered under her insurance.

I am so sick of his games. Recently I tried to file small claims to get back the several thousand he owes me in medical bills. Like the child he is, he hid from the civil process server. He was in the house and wouldn’t answer the door. I spent over $100 trying to get a judgment against him. This failed and, well I am not done.

That is the problem. My exhusband loves games, he loves to be irresponsible and likes to make my life hell. He seems to assume he has me in a corner and that I am helpless and can not get him. It has been hard as hell, but with the right moves and the right tactics I got him. In the end I am winning this, and he will not. It has taken me longer, but all I can say is in the end I am laughing.

My hearing for child support was October 31st, his birthday which made me laugh. I knew he would not respond and I knew he would not cough up his financial information. The state can not get the information from the IRS because the loser doesn’t file taxes. I made sure the IRS got his mortgage papers etc. LOL

2) I put in $1200mo for child support. I got it by default because he didn’t respond. He can object, but he would have to cough up all his financial assets and income. I have a lot of documents on his financial status and if he sends in any less, he is in trouble.

3) I also got 90% to 10% medical bill percentages. Meaning he pays 90% of her medical bills and I pay 10%. I know he is going to just pay child support and fail to pay her medical bills like he has since we got divorced. He thinks if he just avoids being served I can’t get him. I refuse to pay a shitload of medical debt the rest of my life because he was an idiot and violated the court order and dropped her insurance and didnt have the BALLS to tell me. I am sick of living like that.

4) The case is going to be filed in with the circuit court. I will just seek violation of a court order instead. I will then serve him by public notice in the paper. I will get my money, and it will attach to my child support. Meaning if he doesnt pay he will be in violation of paying child support, also have a judgment against his house. That sucks.

A judge can toss him in jail until he pays if he or she wishes.

The moral of the story? Don’t fuck with me.

I am working on photograph editing a lot too. I have been busy as hell with weddings. I would post more now, but I need to finish up a wedding tonight. I will try to post tomorrow. I am still alive.