Posted 1 year, 4 months ago at 10:14 pm. 0 comments
As of tonight I am on day 2 of taking Zyban. So far so good. I really hope I am able to take it this time. I tried it back in 2003 and it made me freak out with horrid panic attacks, but there were other issues such as my untreated irregular heartbeat that escalated it. I have taken care of that and wanted to try it again. I am only taking 1 pill the last two days. Tomorrow I take 1 pill and Thursday I start with the two pills a day. That is the real test when I up the dose. I do feel the “jitters” from it already and that is normal for me. Starting out I get the jitters from it, but it soon fades. I was on Wellbutrin (AKA Zyban) for years as a teenager for a antidepressant so I know my body can deal with the drug.
The side effect of the drug that hits me hard that I am hoping to use to my advantage, is the weight loss. I went almost anorexic while on it. I stopped eating all together and never was hungry. I lost a lot of weight and felt good though. I don’t think it is healthy to not eat, but it will come in handy to not gain a ton of weight. I can force myself to eat and not become unhealthy but also use it as a tool. Continue Reading…
Posted 1 year, 5 months ago at 1:01 am. 0 comments
I am doing all sorts of Spring cleaning. In material things and even my body. Yesterday I cleaned my car really good. I usually run it through the wash and call it good. Yesterday I didn’t use the dryer and actually dried it off myself. It looks so nice. I have a 2003 Black Pontiac Grand Prix. Black is my favorite color but black cars you just can not keep clean. It won’t last long but I love looking at it while it is black and pretty! I hope in a few years to turn around and buy another brand new Black Grand Prix. I of course have to have the moon roof and leather seats. That is what made me fall in love with my car. 
I am making an appointment with my doctor today. I want to go back on Zyban. I took it back in 2003 to stop smoking and it worked well, but I developed serious panic attacks. I had a irregular heart beat at the time and became cardiophobic. I felt jittery and struggled while on the drug. I got off Zyban and started to smoke again after 2 weeks of not smoking.
Why would I want to try it again? I took Wellbutrin (which is the same as Zyban) for several years as a teenager and it was the only anti-depressant that worked for me. The rest made me have bad side effects. Zoloft made me sleep all the time, Paxil made me almost lose my mind. I was like a manic bipolar on the shit. I did stupid shit on that and felt like I wasn’t in control. Prozac made me break out in a nasty rash. Wellbutrin I was on for a long time but it stopped working was the downfall. In 2003 when I went on it to stop smoking I thought I would have no problem.
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